I started the 2010 decade with a couple of rough years and I ended it with a couple of rough years. I don’t like to be vulnerable but I think it’s important to be transparent. The last decade was full of depression, anxiety, and disappointment. But I did have the best year of my life in the last decade – so far. 2020 is going to beat it.
Change is hard for me
and in 2017 a lot of changes began to happen. My husband moved for work so we were in a long distant relationship from fall 2017 to spring 2018. I finished up my last few semesters of school while my girls (2 years and 6 months at the time) had to go to daycare for the first time. Then I interviewed and landed my first job out of the house in four years and then we moved, twice, in one summer.
Smack in the middle of that upheaval I started out with my baby. She was born in January of 2019. Even though she was unplanned and came at the most tumultuous of times, I know she came at the right time. Of course we ended up in the hospital with her and truly thought we were going to lose her for a horrific week.
After that, I stayed home for the next eleven months, just me and my three girls. Last year was full of adventures and fun but 2020 will be better.
The calm after the storm and most days I was still trying to find my footing. I felt completely uprooted and off-kilter for a long time. I’m just now realizing how much I am still dealing with the emotions leftover from 2017/2018.
In the weeks before this new decade started I realized that I had too much left in my heart from the past. I spent a lot of time on reflections for 2020. There was little room for the present and no room for the future. I spent a lot of time thinking over the past few years; taking responsibility for my parts and forgiving others for their parts.
Personal Reflections for 2020
I have moved on. This decade will be full of the present looking forward to the future. I love remembering all the fun times but the past is not somewhere that I want to live.
My words for 2020 are forgiveness, presence, and patience.
The words I am going to carry with me into this next year are, “I can do all things through Christ.” Philippians 4:13
I am tired of being too busy, too sad, and too overwhelmed. Only I can determine how my future will be, I write my own story.
I’m excited to see what this year will bring and I hope you will follow along with me. I would love to hear some of your personal reflections for 2020 in the comments.I was lucky enough to be mentioned in these posts along with other great bloggers you should follow into this year.